What the what? 3:50 AM
Up late thinking… Going through old messages and saved poetry. I’ve realized, this year alone, I’ve been through and feel as if I’ve changed completely into another person. Who am I again?
I’m really lost with words because it’s like I’m content with the new me in college and relationship wise but am I happy? Content to me means satisfaction; enough to get you by. Happiness to me means exceeding satisfactory; a level achieved by moments that not only gets you by but lasts longer than plug in air Freshers in a wall.
I feel like life and love are taking a huge dump on my inspirations and thoughts when, in reality, I need to be concerning myself with passing my finals this week. My ex is giving me the hardest time and my first love is too busy being a marine to even keep in contact for the last few days. I hope to make it through this week and pass all my classes, but it’s hard to do so with no encouragement and self motivation.
New beginnings should come for me soon. I just know it.